Thursday, October 27, 2011

culinary students

i think it was the first time
that i had three culinary students
crammed into my kitchen,
or into my personal cooking space--
which as it is, is only 24 inches wide--
leaving barely enough room for the bowl, and my elbow.
there was a time when the girls wanted to help me cook
every single thing.
that phase actually lasted a long time,
and sometimes i would dream of the days
i could just sit and cook in peace & quiet
while they happily played in their room.
but anytime i am pulling out sugar,
they are anxious to be involved.
and that little brother?
well, he's now old enough
to want to be involved in everything they are.
and so he was climbing up on chairs,
and then over milla
to get as close as he could to the action.
and hey,
since it's his birthday cupcakes
we were whipping up,
he was allowed.
we did run into problems
when it came time to lick the beaters.
there are only two!
and so he was relegated
to opening up and saying ahhhh!
like he does
every time he wants a bit
of whatever it is you're eating.
and milla was nice enough to share her beater.

i mean, they do share a birthday and all.
they may as well share a beater.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

way back in september

my only decent excuse
for the long absence is a little trip
i took all by myself
to new york city--
just to reaffirm to myself
that i did, indeed, leave my heart there.

but other than that,
it's just being busy and being lazy all in one.

as i scrolled back through my pics
i was thinking,
wow!  look how not-so-long-ago
we were still able to wear sweaters
and bare feet in little ballet flats!
i remember that evening
we strolled across the river,
met dad,
and had dinner on the roof
of the old chocolate factory
in the fresh open air.
it in fact turned out to be
much longer ago than i had thought,
both proving to me
that time has gotten away from me,
and also that, no,
you cannot get away with sweaters and ballet flats
in moscow in october--
that night was clear back on sept. 14.

but it was still a lovely night,
even if it was so long ago.
and now, my friends,
the holiday season has begun in full force!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011


it's tough
to go from owning a place
back to renting a place.

there's only so much you can do
to make it feel like "yours."
and i guess it's not a big deal to everyone.
some people don't mind
moving in
and sitting on someone else's sofa--
walking on their rug,
living with their choice of window treatments. . .
but i made sure when we signed the contract
that the owner would be removing
nearly all traces
that would make me feel
like i was living in someone else's place.

and little by little,
more and more corners of our humble home
are becoming ours.